What is my purpose?

 Bonjour!

This is random and hella out of the blue but since no one is ever hardly on blogger these days, I feel like it's a safe space for me now. 

These past few weeks have been hellish for me. In between adjusting to transitions of change to once again questioning the purpose of my existence, my life and self existence has once again hit rock bottom. I used to think I have dreams. I used to want to pursue it. But this pandemic and the state of my mental and physical health right now is just not having any of it. 

I successfully finished my chambering and was called to the Bar in June. Which was of course something big to celebrate. As they say in the legal field, you can get married more than once but you only get called to the bar once in your life. But after a year of chambering, I started to doubt if law is what I really wanted to do in the long run. I have always talked about baking, about having my own small bakery. I loved feeding people, I loved it when people enjoyed my creations and time has proven that I actually have a talent in it. But even my love of baking and dreams of opening a bakery of my own has been dampened by what seems to be like a never ending pandemic. Businesses are failing and I don't wanna jump into something rushed. It's just. I don't know anymore. I just know that I need to keep going but where exactly am I going?