The Unknown

Bonjour!

and again, I've managed to put off publishing anything here for almost 2 months, is it? Well hardy har har to me and my repeated failed attempts of maintaining this darned thing but still needing it once in a while to declutter all the mess in this twisted mind of mine.

Lets move on to recent happenings.

So my engagement is in 9 days. Yes, I said engagement and yes, I said 9 days. never did I think that this day would come where I would put the words "my" and "engagement" in the same sentence. And I'm serious. I gave up on all things commitment and relationships 5 years ago or so and decided to focus on me and rid my life of men for good. And then I met my Future Fiance and all that trash talk about living my life without a man and all my plans that only involved "me, myself and I" went down the drain along with my ego. I can truly say I've been so blessed to be able to find love when I wasn't looking for it. I'd pour my heart out about the Future Fiance here, but I'll save that post for another day. Maybe after the engagement. We'll see.

Going back to the topic of the engagement itself, I've been back in my beloved hometown and I can honestly say my one month holiday was not wasted a single bit. I've been so busy with preparations that I didn't even notice how fast time passed by. I just realized how much more I need to do in terms of preparations. I've had friends ask me if I'm nervous or excited. Basically, those feelings haven't kicked in... yet. I am anticipating those emotions, but maybe I'll save them for a later day seeing as I can't afford to crash and burn now considering all the prep that still needs to be done. Hopefully I'll remember to update this blog with pictures. We shall see. *smirks*

Moving on heavier things....

My exam results came out a week or two ago and as expected, I failed another paper *sigh* But all is still good because 1, I'm used to that feeling of failed papers and 2, it was an anticipated failure. I failed my Criminal Procedure Code 1 paper which isn't a real surprise because I was personally struggling with it. The best I can do is try harder next semester and pass all my other subjects so I can make sure I graduate on time and start raking in the moolah (ka-ching!).

I am, however, starting to worry. Entering my final semester and still not a clue about what I'm gonna do with my life after graduation. To chamber or not to chamber. What other options do I have in the legal world aside from chambering? What's the procedure/path for me to get there? What if I wanna do something outside anything legal related? Oh gosh those questions haunt me in my sleep especially because I've been bombarded with those exact questions for the last few months. I've been avoiding burdening myself with these pestering questions but I know I can't dodge them forever. I'm gonna have to face them sooner or later, I'm just not sure when.

Other than that, life has been good. Life has been blessed. And I am thankful. I am beyond thankful.

xoxo