Bonjour
Wow I just realized how long I've left this blog untouched. I think my last post was during the 3rd or 4th week of my classes and now I'm entering the final week before I go back KK for the Raya break and come back SA to finish up my final exams and top it off with a mock trial for my CTA class.
The reason for my long hiatus? Where do I even begin? With all the filings we've had to do, classes that had to be attended and tests that needed to be taken, I've been submerged in workload that was far too much for me to bite into. Luckily most of the filings were group works, so while I'm at it, shout out to my firm mates for being so strong and supportive throughout this semester. I couldn't possibly do it without them.
Add the stress and pressure of planning an engagement- I've been running around getting preparations done for months now and yet there's still a lot to do. I feel like I've gotten most of it done, but yet there's still a whole lot more undone. I've booked my photographer and make up artist, I've gotten my door gifts ready (oh God I hope I have enough), and most of my hantaran stuff are all set. But there are still one or two things that I need to get for my hantaran, and I haven't gotten my fabric to the tailor yet and I still haven't browsed around for a mini pelamin. A part of me now is saying if I had known earlier how stressful it is to plan an engagement, I would've skipped it all together and go straight to the wedding ceremony. If this is how stressful it's gonna be planning an engagement, then I can't imagine the mess I'll be when I'm planning the wedding. (God I hope my future fiancee can handle the inner bridezilla).
As if that's not enough to make me lose track of time, I've also been facing some personal issues lately. Broken down friendships, tested relationship, homesickness, my general health. Some days are more bearable than others, but on the days when they aren't bearable, I pull back and hide in the comfort of my bed, praying the monsters in my head will go away when they're bored or praying that I'll have the courage to push back and move forward.
But all in all, I'm still good. I'm still standing, even if I'm a tad bit wobbly. I'll make it through with my sanity intact and my heart in one piece.
Hopefully.
Anyways, wishing all uitm students good luck on the upcoming exams, and may we all strive to achieve greater success. Amen.
x's and o's
